Hello and Happy New Year! I opened Feedly for the first time in awhile this morning and saw my friend Lisa did her annual survey, so I thought I’d join in and do it too.
2023 was a pretty crappy year for me, but hopefully doing this survey helps me reflect on some of the good that also happened.
1) What did you do in 2023 that you’ve never done before? Separated from my ex-husband and began only having my kids 50% of the time (though in all honesty because of my more flexible job and how our schedules work it’s probably more of a 60/40 split overall).
2) Did anyone close to you give birth? I can’t think of anyone! My best friend had a baby late 2022.
3) Did anyone close to you die? My beloved maternal Grandmother took her last breath on October 15 at 12:55am. The hardest loss I’ve ever faced. She was fine a year ago. She was fine 6 months ago. Her illness was diagnosed and then took her within 2.5 months. 3 months before she passed we were all camping at the lake together.
I am still grieving so much from this loss and miss her every day.
4) What places did you visit?
- In April, I went on a girls trip to Sparkling Hill Resort, near Vernon BC with five other local mom friends
- In July, the kids and I joined my mom on a trip to Blind Bay, BC to visit my brother
- In August, I visited Banff and Canmore with my good friend Lisa!
- The kids and I went on several camping trips with family.
5) What would you like to have in 2024 that you didn’t have in 2023? More good things. More happiness. Less heartbreak.
6) What dates from 2023 will be etched in your memory forever?
- The day I knew it was time to end my marriage.
- 4 days after that, when we found out my Grandma had a mass on her lung.
- Olivia’s first day of school – a positive memory!
- The day my ex husband moved out.
- The last real conversation/time I spent with my Grandma, which at the time I didn’t realize she would decline so quickly. This was a week before she passed.
- The weekend my Grandma passed away. I was with her at the hospital as much as I could be. I went home to sleep 2 hours before she took her last breath and I regret not being there for that.
7) What was your biggest achievement this year? Literally surviving. It was such a hard year and some days it was actually waking up and putting one foot in front of the other that was my biggest achievement.
8) What was your biggest failure? Oh god I don’t know if I really had any failures this year. I have a few regrets over how I handled things in very intensely emotional times… however, I’m not sure that can be considered a failure as so many things were coming at me at one time, it was very stressful and I think I just did the best I could.
9) Did you suffer from illness or injury? We have been sick a lot this fall. At the end of November I had strep throat, and it was the sickest I have been in years. My throat swelled up so much I could barely swallow my own saliva and I had to get a steroid shot to help with the swelling and take T3’s to help with the pain!
10) What was the best thing you bought? Definitely Bridget Casey’s Six Figure Stock Portfolio course. I have been following her for about a year now and her content has really influenced my thoughts about finances and saving for retirement. I also feel like my retirement savings is more in my control now that I’m managing it myself via Wealthsimple.
11) Where did most of your money go? Thanks to the You Need a Budget app I can actually look and see where I spent the most money! Housing costs (mortgage, taxes, insurance etc.) were the highest at 37%, followed by Groceries & Food at 13.1% (oy the high cost of food over the last year is so dang depressing) followed by Savings & Retirement at 12%! I am feeling pretty good about these numbers as I did really ramp up my savings last year.
12) What did you get really, really excited about? I had two amazing girls trips last year which really really filled my bucket. In April I went to Sparkling Hills Resort with five of my closest local mom friends and it was an AMAZING weekend. Then in August I spent 3 days in Canmore and Banff with Lisa and that was also an incredible bucket filling trip. I was going through a really hard time on that trip and am very grateful for Lisa’s calming presence 🙂
13) What authors did you discover in 2023? I will echo Lisa and say Maggie Smith (You Could Make This Place Beautiful) as that book really impacted me and I am anxious to read more by her now.
14) What do you wish you had done more of? I can’t help but wish for more time with my grandmother. I know that there was no way to know our time together would be cut short and I did spend quite a bit of time with her, but you always want more, right? I wish I’d went to her house every weekend instead of every third or fourth weekend. I wish I’d been with her more at the end. It’s just such a stark reminder to spend as much time with those who mean the most to us as we can.
15) What do you wish you had done less of? Crying and screaming.
16) How did your spend Christmas? We had my family celebration at my mom’s on Christmas Eve, the kids and I had just recovered from a bad respiratory cold. Then Christmas Morning was quiet and the kids and I were at my house and I invited their dad over to join us for opening presents. After that my mom came over and we had breakfast and at noon the kids went to their dads. I took the dog for an hour long hike in the trails, which was really lovely and head clearing and then went to my ex’s house to have Christmas dinner with him and the kids. It was a low key Christmas but the best it could be considering the circumstances.
17) What was your favorite TV program? I rewatched Ted Lasso seasons 1&2 and then watched season 3 (love that show!) and towards the end of the year I started rewatching early 2000’s teen drama show, One Tree Hill. Season 2 of Firefly Lane was also very good and made me ugly cry.
18) What did you want and get? I wanted to move forward in my career and I did that. I will be starting a new job in two weeks that is a huge step up for me both in salary and responsibility!
19) What did you want and not get? I’m sorry to sound like a broken record, but the main thing I wanted that I did not get was for my Grandma to be okay.
20) What was your favorite film of 2023? I don’t really watch a lot of movies and none of them are standing out in my mind for 2023. The most recent movie I watched was Secret: Dare to Dream and it was pretty good!
21) What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? I turned 35 on September 9th and I rented the local spin studio and invited all my friends for a private class there. Afterwards we had mimosas and donuts. It was a great birthday and a bright spot in the middle of an incredibly tough time.
22) What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? Broken record over here, but my Grandma not getting sick…
23) Who kept you sane? Without a doubt, my friends. I had the most incredible friends near and far reaching out to me, checking in on me and sending me wonderful surprises in the mail. They were my rocks and I would not have gotten through the last few months without them.
24) Who did you miss? The first half of the year I was still grieving my Grandpa, who passed 18 months to the day before we lost my Grandma. Then of course the second half of the year I missed my Grandma – even before she passed, she was so so ill, I missed who she was.
25) Who was the best new person you met? I actually met her in September of 2022 but we became much better friends in 2023 and that’s my friend Christine. She’s one of the people who has really been there for me, especially through my separation!
26) Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2023. We can do hard things.
27) Show us one of your favorite photos from the year.
This photo of my kids with my Grandma on our last camping trip at the beginning of July. This was taken about 3 weeks before she got sick and 3 months before she passed away.
Sorry if my survey was a bit depressing, honestly 2023 was VERY VERY difficult for me. I just hope 2024 is better. I would love it if it would be a great year, but I will settle for better and not as heartbreaking as 2023!
How was 2023 for you?